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Hello Beauties, 

Well, what can I say? Today I couldn't be bothered. I put on whatever, tied my hair back, and threw on some bright lippy. Lately I feel really drained. Physically and emotionally. All I wanted today was some alone time with the man upstairs, so I went to church (mass) and just prayed and prayed and prayed. I zoned out so much that I couldn't tell you what the priest was saying during the mass. But I have faith that things will work out. I won't go into too much detail, but will say this. Being an immigrant is hard, and I hate that I am constantly being reminded of it. My being bilingual is a curse, and you'd be shocked at the amount of times I have been flat out accused of lying about my being english, because I look latina, and don't speak spanish with an english accent. Doesn't hardly anybody out here know that London is a multi-cultural city? I know I shouldn't let other people's ignorance affect me, but when my job hunt depends on my being a native english speaker, it's horrible. It doesn't matter that I am a half Spanish person living in Spain. I don't feel spanish, so I don't feel completely at home. Despite being bilingual, I struggle with the language. I am constantly putting my foot in it, so I constantly feel embarrassed. And it's worse when people don't correct me on the spot. Long story short, Madrid has never felt like home. I need to move. But where to? I don't have any guarantees anywhere else and I don't want to spend the rest of my life just being a nomad. I just have to remind myself that things could be worse, that God has a plan for me, and it shall reveal itself in perfect time. In the mean time, I'm just going to continue working hard, job hunting as much as possible, and fingers cross, starting my masters this year too. Whatever comes after, is yet to be seem. Going back to my outfit. I'm not intentionally wearing all-black so often these days. It just keeps happening. Oh well. I guess it's the safest option when you just don't feel like making any effort. Thank God for accessories. If it were not for the accessories, there'd be no colour in this look at all!
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Hola Bellezas, 
Pues, qué os puedo contar? Hoy no tenia ganas de nada. Me puse lo que sea, me recojí el cabello, y me pinté los labios con un color cantoso. Ultimamente me siento agotada. Fisicamente y emocionalmente. Lo único que quería hoy, era tiempo a solas con El Señor, asi que fui a misa y rezé sin parar. Me metí tan adentro que no te se decir de qué hablaba el cura. Pero tengo fe que todo va a acabar bien.  No voy a entrar en mucho detalle, pero si os voy a decir esto. Ser immigrante es muy duro, y detesto el hecho de que constantemente estoy siendo recordada de que soy inmigrante. Mi ser bilingüe es una maldición. Fliparian de la cantidad de veces de que en mi cara me han acusado de mentir sobre mi ser inglesa, porque tengo cara de latina y no hablo español con acento inglés. Será que aquí no hay casi nadie que comprende que Londres es una ciudad multi-cultural? Ya lo se que no debería permitir que la ignorancia de los demas me afecte, pero cuando mi busqueda de empleo depende de el hecho de que soy inglesa nativa, es horrible. Y da igual que soy mitad española. Yo no me siento española, asi que no me siento como en casa. A pesar de ser bilingue, el idioma me sigue siendo un reto. Constantemente estoy metiendo la pata, y constantemente me estoy muriendo de la verguenza. Y es peor cuando nadie me corrige al instante. En resumen, nunca me he sentido del todo como en casa en Madrid. Necesito mudarme. Pero para donde? No tengo garantias en ninguna parte, y no quiero pasar el resto de mi vida siendo nomada. Necesito recordar que las cosas podian ser peores, que Dios tiene un plan para mi, y que en el tiempo perfect, se revelará. Mientras seguiré luchando, buscando empleo, y si Dios quiere, comenzaré mi masters este año. Y lo que me toque luego, está por verse. Volviendo al look, no me estoy vistiendo tanto de negra a posta ultimamente. Es que me sale asi. En fin. Supong que es la combinación mas segura cuando tienes bajón y no te apetece nada estar ahi arreglandote. Gracias a Dios por los complementos. Sino fuese por los complementos, este look no tendria color!



Jumper - H&M
Leggings - C&A
Lipstick - YSL




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